Gridlocks And Road Blocks

“I honestly didn’t mean to introduce you to my daughter so soon,” Will said as I sat across from him in his office. “Of course I knew she was at the party, but I figured considering the mansion was vast and the yard sprawling, that she was nowhere near us. I’m sorry if it made you uncomfortable.”

I shook my head vehemently. “It’s fine. I actually like Kayla. She was sweet.”

The lines on Will’s forehead disappeared as he smiled in relief. “I’m glad then. Like I said, I thought you should know.”

I became silent. It was in situations like these that I didn’t know which was best: that I talk, or that I remain quiet? The fact that I liked Kayla didn’t plateau the fear levels of starting anything with Will. He told me that we could take it slow and understand what we want. That I didn’t have to decide there and then if I wanted to make something of us, even if it was just dating. But the weekend was over, I’m back at work, and I was at an impasse. I didn’t know if I should give him a chance because he was so honest; or if I shouldn’t even consider him because he has a daughter. Whichever the case, he was taking a chance on me and that seemed all too familiar.

For safety reasons, road blocks are put into place as a security precaution; had this been a gridlock of my own for safety reasons? Was Kayla brought in at the exact moment I should be reflecting on my emotions with Will, and whether or not I was old enough to be with him (and I don’t mean age-wise). Was this road block an obstacle, a precaution, a security risk…or was it the light at the end of a tunnel?

I cleared my throat. “It’s good you told me.” It was obvious he was looking for that sort of approval by the way he was fidgeting, and I didn’t want to leave him hanging.

Will let out a breath taken hostage by his anxiousness. “Anyway,” he started, “I was thinking, maybe you should research some of the publishing houses in L.A and New York. I think once you do all the research and actually get a feel of the life you wish to live, you’d know which you’d like.” Will opened a draw in his desk and then handed me a folder. “This is a list of the publishing houses and their addresses. There’s a little bit of information in there about them but you’re going to have to do most of the ground work yourself. These people want to know more than you’re interested and passionate, that you understand what they’re doing. It’d be like half the training is done for them.”

I picked at the corner of the folder and straightened the bent piece. “Thank you so much. I can’t believe you did all of this for me.”

“Well, I, uh, I did have some help,” he stuttered. “It’s not like I went scavenging on my own.”

I nodded. “Right.” Was he embarrassed? Sounded like it.

“In any case,” he said, pulling out another, much more thicker, folder, “I need you to look over these and make sure the grammar and punctuation is on point, I need you to fact check, and also make some edits where needed.”

“Back to work then,” I said.

Will nodded and smiled. “What can I say, it’s never ending.”

I stood and was half way towards the door when Will caught my attention again. I turned around.

“Listen,” he began, “we still haven’t made a date for Casablanca and The Lion King, plus dinner. If you do end up going to New York, maybe we can have a date before then?”

“I’ve already been to New York,” I said. I had to steer clear from reminiscing a time that was once short-lived.

Will tilted his head. “But have you actually seen it?”

I shrugged. “Maybe just one visit before I finish my break from UCLA, just to loosen up a bit. Wouldn’t hurt.”

Will nodded. “Wouldn’t hurt, indeed.”

I smiled and then walked out. Once I got to my desk, I immediately remembered I hadn’t answered Will’s offer on the date. Instead of going back, I delved into my work. It was clear that no one puts up the road blocks but me.


19 thoughts on “Gridlocks And Road Blocks

  1. Was this post just a little bit shorter? Not complaining! Just trying to make sure I’m not losing it. Lol
    I can’t wait to see what happens! 🙂

  2. This might be a bit random, but I am super confused on why Anna is starting school back up again “next week.” Isn’t it summer? We just read a post about the 4th so it doesn’t make sense for her to be going back to school already. Actually, I’m super confused why she’s going back to UCLA at all. The very first post of this blog was all about how excited Anna was that this was her last year at UCLA and now that it’s summertime, I had assumed that she’d graduated. But now I have no idea. Maybe I missed something or overlooked a detail about it, but if anyone can clear that up for me I would really appreciate it!

    1. Hi Anonymous!

      Here’s a little sneak peek from the next post. Maybe it’ll draw you in again…

      “I had been treading the waters of daydreaming when I started to hear a familiar voice behind me that I couldn’t quite place…”

      Soul xo

        1. Hi Kris!

          Such a shame Will isn’t an appealing character for you. I personally like him but to each their own I guess! I hope future characters will be more interesting! Thanks for reading!

          Soul xo

          1. I’ll never stop reading 🙂 I think for me I just haven’t felt that crazy connection between them yet. I’m sure it will come !

    1. Hi Poets and Heartbreakers!

      Do you think that a person going back and forth and being indecisive about a particular relationship is a bad thing and should consider it an omen; call it quits there and then?

      Thank you for being interested in my blog!

      Soul xo

  3. Well, I guess Anna has one more year in college so she does need to start exploring her options.
    Will -tread carefully w him. Not that he’s a bag guy but he has lots of things going on that I am not sure Anna is ready to tackle.

    1. Hi Amy W!

      Anna exploring her options is something that I completely neglected in my last year of my first degree, so Anna doing that now makes me love the fact that she’s thinking about her future. It almost makes me feel like I’m passing on my ‘wisdom’ to her!

      I’m also loving the varied insights into Will’s and Anna’s relationship thus far! Thank you for your reading!

      Soul xo

    1. Hi Danielle!

      I really wanted to upload this next post as a BONUS because I’m so excited to see (read) everyone’s reactions, but considering it happens on the weekend and I’m trying to write the blog in real time, it unfortunately won’t work! With that being said, maybe I could offer little snippets and sneak peeks like the one I replied with to Anonymous commenter 12:25am, however short or long or interesting or not they may be. It’s so lovely to see that you (and all readers, really) are so eager to find out what happens.

      I hope I’ve done justice to the coming posts! Thanks for reading!

      Soul xo

  4. So I found your blog from reading the comments on another blog and IM OBSESSED. I started at the beginning and read them all in a day basically. I couldn’t stop. Your writing is phenomenal. I do miss Daniel though! I’m thinking it’s because while others had time to adjust to him not being in the story, I was just reading about him yesterday haha. However, great job and I can’t wait to read your next post! Being caught up in “real time” is such a bummer! 😉

    1. Hi reisingerb!

      It’s always a pleasure to see (and read) a comment from a new reader! Your words are so kind and I’m extremely flattered that you’re obsessed. Even more so, thank you so so much for the compliment you gave about my writing, it is unbelievably encouraging and something that I hold dear to my heart so, thank you again!

      On that note, I would also like to reveal to everyone a clue about the title of the next post and also a little snippet:

      1. The title of the next post is taken from the name of a song from Lauryn Hill’s album, The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill. Can anyone guess what the title is?

      2. The snippet: ” “If I do choose New York, I need you to be supportive, because I won’t be able to do the move without you guys.” ”

      Thanks for your comments and interest with my blog everyone! As always the readership and kind words inspire me to keep going, not just with my writing here but also with my other fictional work!

      Lots of love! See you soon!

      Soul xo

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