“You seriously need to loosen up and just have fun,” Johnny said.
“But why do I have to come along with you guys?”
Johnny leaned in. “Help me chaperone.”
“Brooklyn’s finest Ferris wheel must be ridden to schmoose a date. And by the looks of it, Paul is really diggin’ his date.”
Indeed, Paul was smitten. He and Alejandro were stuck like glue. Alejandro, a dark beauty reminiscent of a Stallion (strong, powerful, and not castrated; I could literally see a bulge at certain angles here and there; it was distracting), looked like Antonio Banderas, if Antonio Banderas was 27-years-old and an underwear model. Bulge ‘n’ all.
“But Coney Island?”
Johnny nodded. “I know. They should call it Corny Island for these two suckers in love.”
“Why are we chaperoning anyway?” I asked, as we walked in the freezing cold to have no-age-limit fun. “Isn’t Paul big enough to go out on a date on his own?”
Paul overheard my question and quickly came to us. “Open up your pretty green eyes. He’s doing it for you, honey.”
“Thanks Paul,” Johnny said sarcastically.
“Oh, when you said not to tell her, do you mean I shouldn’t tell her,” Paul grinned and then skipped away, waving his hand. “Toodles!”
I crossed my arms and stopped walking, Paul and Alejandro gaining distance. “For me?”
Johnny rubbed the back of his neck. His hair hidden under a beanie. “Look, don’t take this the wrong way, okay? I just thought you needed some fun, we can double date-ish as friends—” he stressed the word ‘friends’; adding a deeper tone “—and just get you back in a better groove. You need this you time.”
He was right. The added stress of telling Adam and now Daniel that I didn’t love them, was weighing down on me. Hard. I wanted to come back to work refreshed and banging, and I wanted to tell Daniel honestly and upfront about my feelings towards him. But can I be honest with myself, too?
“Thank you,” I said.
Johnny smiled, dipping his bare hands into his pockets and shrugging. “Not a problem, love. Come on. First ride is your pick.”
“Whatever I want?”
“Whatever you want,” he nodded.
A few minutes later we were seated on the Ferris wheel, ready for a little spin. We were stationary waiting on a couple more people to join us, and sit opposite us. Johnny was fidgeting and jittery, hiding it with fail.
“Are you okay?”
“Yeah, I’m fine,” his teeth clattered. “It’s just that, I’m not very good at heights.”
“You’re afraid of heights?”
“Listen, I am too, but where in this little container, sitting comfortably, we’ll be fine.”
“Fine, fine, fine,” he repeated as a chant, “fine is getting back on the ground safely.”
I rubbed his arm. “Don’t worry.”
“I’m not worried,” he said, turning to me and stretching out his legs. “I’m cool as a cat.”
Johnny and I were too into our phobias when another couple came in, that we barely noticed. The woman seemed deep in conversation, but the man hardly said anything. When the door locked shut, we finally had the courtesy to acknowledge them.
Here’s a tip: when two people are suffering, don’t go out to the happiest places in New York City, because you just might bump into them. Lo and behold, sitting opposite Johnny and I was Daniel. This is going to be one long ride.
***Hi all! A couple of things; first, I’ve been getting some comments about the quality of the blog, and to fix the issue, I was wondering if it’d make everyone happier to post CaliforniaSoulBlog posts once a week only. I do try very hard to please everyone as well as myself, so of course it will sadden me that a lot of people don’t enjoy the blog as much as they used to, or think that I don’t enjoy it as much as I used to (I wrote overseas on vacation guys; clearly I’m obsessed with this blog lol soon to be determined whether unhealthily or healthily obsessed), and I just want to try and fix it for you guys and make it much more enjoyable for you all. I do fluctuate between a lot of stories, but it’s only because I love writing and creating them so so much! You are all an amazing added bonus; and what a bonus, I’m so appreciative! So let me know what you all think about posting once a week instead; if you think that’s a good idea! Second thing now, and to make it more upbeat, I may or may not have a BONUS post waiting in the wings! All you guys have to do is post one or more of your favourite memories from the blog; it can be anything; involve anyone; even about favourite music links or polls! I think this is a fun, great way to take people back to older times on CaliforniaSoulBlog! Comment below, the more the merrier, and I will post a BONUS in a couple of days (around the same time Samson&Delilah’s next post is up!). Lots of Love, Soul xo***