Katya, Lucy, Vivian and I were all getting ready at my house for a Halloween party at a place hosted by a guy called Greg. Apparently it was the going to be the first of a few stops before we headed down to the drive-in theatre to watch Hocus Pocus. Totally predictable but I can’t get enough of that movie even if it wasn’t Halloween.
While the girls were setting up in my room I got a facetime call from Chloe. They were all dressed up getting ready for their own party night.
“Aww I miss you guys! When are you all coming to visit me!?” I whined, pouting my lip.
“When you buy us three plane tickets!” Chloe laughed.
“Screw you,” I said.
“We miss you so much too, Anna,” Jodie said. She came closer to the screen and squinted. “Are you…? What are you?”
“Oh! I know!” Chloe chimed. “Madonna, right?”
“See, I knew you’d get it,” I nodded.
“I hope you have tons of fun!” Chloe said.
“And tons of hot sex!” Jodie yelled loud enough for Katya, Lucy or Vivian to hear.
I didn’t want to tell them I was sleeping with someone else’s man all things considered, so of course I felt horribly guilty for keeping a secret from my best friends. I mean, it’s not like we tell each other everything, right? Oh, who am I kidding, we tell each other everything.
I said my goodbyes and slouched on the bed.
“So how are things going with you and Jasper?” Katya winked.
I frowned. “Did you guys know he’s a doctor?”
“Who?” Lucy asked, playing with Vivian’s hair.
“Jasper,” I said. “This whole time, no one knew?”
“That’s weird. Why did he say he was a financier or whatever the fuck he did?” Katya asked.
I shook my head. “It wasn’t exactly him that said it, apparently.”
“You do get around,” Katya nudged me.
I smiled a crooked smile like I was both in excruciating physical pain and trying to hide it. “So, this party. Are we walking?”
I wanted to change the subject as quickly as I could. Enough with the Jasper and Julie talk. Tonight, I wanted to let loose and get drunk.
Kids were running around with their plastic pumpkin buckets as we walked up the street. Some with one or both of their parents and some old enough to go with a group of friends. If I’d known how far Greg’s house was I would’ve insisted on a car ride because my heels were killing me. by the time we got there they were throbbing and all I wanted to do was sit down and have a drink. We could hear them pumping music from outside; when we entered the crowded house, on repeat I caught the lyrics ‘get you alone’.
“Ladies, welcome,” a man I assumed was Greg greeted us at the door dressed as Frankenstein. “Let me guess,” he squinted and then pointed at Vivian, “you are—”
“Don’t you even start, Greg,” she said, holding up an open hand.
“What?” Greg laughed and shrugged.
“Where’s the bar?” Katya asked, rubbing her hands together.
“Are you already drunk? It’s in the kitchen, duh,” Greg said.
“Shut the fuck up,” Katya rolled her eyes, fisticuffing with Greg until he was begging for her to stop while also cackling sounding like a wild horse.
“Follow me,” Greg said, gesturing here and there like a flight attend and we the passengers.
We fixed ourselves a drink and started dancing to the contemporary club top 100.
“There’s your boyfriend,” Katya nodded at me, staring at someone behind me.
I turned around and saw Julie and Jasper walking in side by side with his hand around her waist.
“Ugh so gross,” I scrunched my nose as if I could smell a foul stench.
“Nevermind him, it’s just us tonight,” Vivian nodded.
“Yeah,” Lucy added. “Just us.”
“Hey guys,” someone said.
“Hey, Jasper; hi Julie,” Lucy beamed, waving her hand. Then, she shrugged, throwing me an apologetic smile.
I shook my head and smiled as if it totally didn’t bother. It shouldn’t bother me—they shouldn’t bother me—but seeing them together annoys the shit out of me. I think it’s the whole fake idea of happiness and being dragged along for the ride as a watchful third wheel from the distance that also happens to occasionally have sex with the boyfriend. Or maybe it’s his repetition of the phrase ‘it’s complicate’ that is so frustratingly vague I’m bordering being not giving a fuck and giving too much of a fuck that the curiosity is eating away at my insides like a rabbit nibbling on my organs.
“Let me guess,” Jasper pointed at me. I crossed my arms over my chest, defensively. “Madonna, right?”
“That’s right,” I sighed.
He smiled a cute and yet annoying smile. “You guys look great.”
“What are you, Jasper?” Lucy asked.
“Isn’t it obvious? Danny Zuko.”
“Dude, you’re only wearing a leather jacket. You look exactly the same as you normally do,” Vivian said.
“Excuse me.” He pointed at his hair. “The poof took me all night.”
“And it looks exactly the same,” Vivian emphasised, making the girls cackle.
I could only smile weakly but I literally have nothing to be so mopey about, I don’t know why I just don’t enjoy myself.
“Alright, car is parked and we’re set,” a bearded guy with an eyebrow ring entered the group.
“Oh, this is Sean my brother; Sean, this is everyone,” Julie said, sounding off each of our names and I loosened up my abrasive demeanour with each passing name.
Sean paid special attention to Vivian and Vivian eyed him knowingly. The sneaky exchange made me smile, I almost broke the secretive atmosphere by snickering.
“So what are you, Julie?” Katya asked.
“Oh, I don’t dress up. I’m not a child,” Julie replied, shooting a fake smile at Katya, point blank in the dead of night.
“Not a good lawyer either,” Katya grumbled. I widened my eyes a fraction and caught my gasp before I could escape and add more tension.
“What did you—?” Julie started.
“Alright,” Jasper smiled. “Play nice. It’s Halloween. For one night, let’s all get along.”
“Fine by me,” Sean said.
“Same here,” Vivian added. They smiled, neither of them breaking their line of sight.
“Whatever,” Julie mumbled, crossing her arms over her chest as Jasper squeezed her closer. I almost gagged. He should get an Oscar for how well he acts. If he kisses her, then I’m done. So done.
“I’m going to get a refill,” I said, moving away before anyone could ask that I fix them a drink. It’s a good thing no one knows I used to bartend.
I realised I hadn’t completely finished my vodka soda so I took my sweet time taking small sips until every last drop was gone.
“Boo,” a voice behind me startled me.
I scrunched my face and turned around. “Oh it’s you.”
“Now that’s a scary face,” Jasper said.
“Shut up,” I nudged him, chuckling. “I was ready to kill you for jumping at me like that.”
“Do you have amnesia? Short term memory loss? It’s Halloween.”
“Doesn’t mean you go around scaring people. Especially people fixing themselves a refill.”
“Yeah, I noticed you were drinking at the table. I mean, we could call a hotline, get you into AA. Supportive groups are all the rage apparently.”
“I will fuck you up, Jasper,” I said, firmly. He laughed. “What’s with the budget Danny Zuko costume?”
“Hey, I wasn’t even going to dress up in the first place.”
“This is you dressed up?”
He pointed at his mane. “The hair, it’s all about the hair.”
“And the leather jacket,” I added.
“And people said I’d never wear this jacket, yeah right.”
“Excuse me while I…” he leaned over me, his nose buried in my hair, holding for a few seconds and then returning to leaning back on the table, his hand lightly grazing my lower back as he pulled back. He cleared his throat, smiling cheekily. “…fix myself a drink too.”
“You shouldn’t draw attention, you know,” I warned.
He furrowed his brows in disbelief. “Everyone is either not paying attention or too drunk to even notice.”
“Not Julie,” I noted.
“No, not Julie.” He looked down at his empty red cup. “You know what else is not Julie? The person I’ve been thinking about a lot lately.”
“That’s too bad.”
“Actually, that’s pretty good.”
“Except when you get a hard-on and Julie has to take of it, huh?” I scoffed, raising a brow along with my attitude.
He narrowed his eyes. “Why do you have to break what I’m saying like that?”
I shrugged. “What?” He didn’t say anything. He just held my gaze to the point where I squirmed with discomfort at the thoughtful silence. “I’m going to go. Enjoy the rest of your night,” I smiled. Bitch alert? Present!
“…ugh why is he even talking to her?” Julie hissed.
“Give it a rest, Julie. She’s hot, he’s hot, get over it,” Katya rolled her eyes.
“Can we talk about something else?” Lucy asked.
Julie studied Vivian with a slight, mouth-curdling disgust as Vivian leaned over the intricately detailed fireplace and Sean was leaning into her.
“I don’t even know what he sees in her,” Julie hissed again, ignoring Katya’s protest to give it a rest.
“Oh watch out now, if Vivian drives home with him you better believe his getting some, even on the drive there,” Katya joked. “Let them have fun, you prude.”
Julie narrowed her eyes at Katya. “What are you even talking about? We all know Japs can’t multitask while driving.” She burst out laughing. “I’m just joking.”
“You son of a—” Katya started.
Before I could let her finish, I threw my vodka soda in Julie’s face, drenching her and her suit. “Bitch!”
***So a while ago there was a celebrity that apologised for making an offensive joke, and so I was talking to someone the other day and told them this and wondered why is it that when a celebrity makes that kind of joke they have to apologise for it, but when our friends or people we know make an offensive joke, it’s all in jest and light-hearted fun. That person said it’s because that celebrity is making that joke to an audience of a large scale, not like how a friend would say it to a friend of theirs, perhaps even about their friend. So I was wondering if you make\made offensive jokes? What’s the reaction from people? What’s the reaction from yourself? Do you see anything wrong or not with it? What’s your overall thought on the subject? There’s also an interesting notion from a YouTuber who frequently says the N-word and the homophobic F-word in an effort to make a point and when he gets flamed by people saying it’s wrong or that only certain people can use certain cuss words, he maintains that either all of it is okay, or none of it is okay, and that’s especially in relation to the N-word. So basically what’s your thoughts on all that I’ve mentioned? Hope you all have a lovely day! Soul***